It’s the Final Countdown!!!!!!

img_2525

So as of today’s writing (8/7/18), there only are three days before the debut of Lil’ Luvvies at my first convention as a vendor. Conventions always have been my safe place, my haven: I am a mega nerd and having a place to interact with other mega nerds and get to meet some awesome celebrities always is a good time. However, this time, I’m feeling the anxiety. I’m on the other side of the aisle at this one and it is a completely different ballgame – even though it’s played on the same field.

For weeks now, I’ve been trying to stock up and make as many items as possible. I want to have an assortment of goodies to sell. The problem is, I am slower than dirt when I make something, so I haven’t been able to amass quite the stash that I had hoped for.

I’ve not been able to sleep at night warring between two emotions: One that I will have invested all this time, money, and effort and no one will buy anything; or the other side of the coin that it will be popular and I’ll sell out of everything the first day and then I won’t have anything to sell the rest of the weekend.

It’s hard as a new vendor, and as someone who is just approaching my first “official” anniversary as a crocheter. I work slowly, but I try to be careful with my stitches. The funny thing is you can see even in the products I have for the convention there has been a change in my style. Things that I made 2-3 months ago have a more rugged appearance than the pieces that I have created now. That makes me happy, because it is a sign of progress; however, it also makes me nervous because could people see this as a sign of inconsistency?

I think I have mentioned before: I struggle daily with anxiety, low self-esteem, and depression. Crochet helps me to deal with a lot of these issues, even now as I am stressing over the vending aspect of the convention, I still am enjoying crocheting. I love to see the personalities of my Luvvies when they are finished. I have so much fun naming them (even though I know those names will change), and taking pictures with them. I created a Shutterfly album for Lil’ Luvvies when I started the Web site, I have almost 600 pictures in that album to date. I think that is a testament to how much I enjoy what I do.

But it is a different thing to enjoy what you do, and then to have people be able to judge what you do. And trying to determine a price point for these items is even worse. I always joke with my husband that I have champagne tastes on a soda budget, this happens to extend to my yarn choices. I’ve said in previous blogs that I have an absolute fascination with yarn (and have the stash to prove it). But in my quest for my favorite yarn(s), I gravitate toward the “higher” end, better quality yarns. Now, those yarns definitely make for a better Luvvie and a softer plushie for the customer, but they aren’t as inexpensive as some brands. For some of the yarns that I use, I can spend $3.29 for a skein and use two full skeins in a project: This means I already have to charge close to $7.00 just to cover the cost of my materials. I don’t want to undercut competitors and I don’t want to sell myself short, but I also don’t want to seem outlandish in what I am charging, so that is something – even three days out from the convention that I am struggling with.

The positive is this con – as my first con – is on my “home turf” so to speak. This is a convention that I have attended dozens of times as a guest, and I know that I will have the love and support of friends and family who will stop to visit and give some support. I know I have that support behind me, and I am grateful for it. I hope that people like my products and that, at the end of the con, it will be something that it successful but also lots and lots of fun.

I will be posting a post-convention wrap up next week with lots of pictures from the show to share with you all. Fingers crossed!

Hugs and cuddles,

Elisha

One thought on “It’s the Final Countdown!!!!!!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s