This has pretty much been the story of my life for the past month. I either end up wearing myself completely out so that I am falling asleep in mid-stitch on my couch and end up going to be ridiculously early; or, I am up until the wee hours of the morning and then have to get up at the crack of dawn and get no sleep – there is no in between.
As much as I love sleep, and as much as I will complain to friends and family that I always need a nap, I wouldn’t trade these past few weeks for anything.
Yes, I’ve been stressed at times – wondering will I have enough stock for Steel City Con (the first day is a little more than a week away); if people will like what I have made; or if I’ll even end up selling anything. For the past week or so, I’ve had a recurring nightmare that I have my table all set up and looking beautiful and no one buys anything. I’m just completely passed over.
Along with that fear, I also wonder about my pricing. I’m an accountant for my day job, so some of that automatically translates into what I am doing now: I know what my materials cost and what I need to sell for to at least break even. I don’t want to out price myself – or be too high above the competition; however, I don’t want to undercut any competition either.
Because of all these thoughts and fears going through my head, even on nights when I try to make it to bed at a reasonable hour, I find myself lying awake pondering how I came to this point. I do worry if I’ve made a mistake starting this as a business – some people are not cut out for business; and if I should have just kept this as something I do for fun. The other part of me – the one that wins out more often than not says, I’m going to be crocheting and finding new patterns anyhow, so I might as well at least get some income to help pay for the supplies and share some of the love.
Which brings me right back to where I started – I’m getting about 4 hours of sleep a night, there are days that I have blind panic wondering what I should be doing, if this is the right decision, if people are going to like my products – this is the first time I’m stepping out from behind the computer and really putting myself out there (even when I had the Etsy shop for my essential oil products I never ventured beyond the online aspect), but despite the stress and lack of sleep I am so happy with what I am doing. Seeing these lil’ cuties come to life gives me such joy.
I was finishing a Luvvie last night, and as she was getting the final fluff and touches, I couldn’t resist giving her a squeeze and loads of love – because that is really what it is about: It is the love I put into each stuffed animal, and the love that animal is able to “give” to its forever owner. So, yeah, sleep is vastly overrated if I can bring a little happiness into someone’s life.